A Change to Me

These several days are the saddest days that i never had in my lifetime...
A lot of bad things are keeping to be happened on me....
The most worriest thing is finally coming to me>>>

I really can't stand for it
I really can't accept it as a truth for me
Even I have cried til my pillows are wet and heart broken til i can't breath over nights and nights
it is not gonna to be changed...my brain is so painful and stressful now...

Long time ago, when i grow up >>
I am so selfish and always just think about of myself,
too greedy to expect my own future life....materialistic life>>>a life that everyone wish to have....

But>>>now...start from now...
I don't want all of this. Those are valueless and worthless for me....
I can exchange all of these to get back the precious...even exchanging my lifetime
I just hope all is going back to normal...
I just want to have a happy and simple life to me.....a happy smile to me every morning
It is just what i want now...that's all....
i don't want to loss it anymore>>i really can't imagine what will i do after this....

I don't want anything..foolish thing...i just want it back....
God bless no matter what is the religion you are...
Pls give it back to me>> a happy life even exchanging my lifetime....

Nothing is more important than it>>>from my deeply mind and heart....