What does a friend mean to you?

Hey guys....do you know what is the meaning of friend for you?

I'm curious that do you think that friendship is that easy to be destroyed?

Fine, i know that there are some different kinds of friends in our life...like say-hello or goodbye friends, good friends, better friends, best friends or even a best best best friends as your brothers or sister...at least they are still your friends...

But why you just suddenly lost yourself from all your friends? Is that because you don't like or want to cool down or what?? Even though we have no rights to know about your reasons, you shouldn't just simply delete your account, contacts and leave behind all your friends and run back!!!

What does we mean when we have fun together in this 3 years?

Are we just the substitutes of your real friends in your country?? Once graduation, you decide to ignore us and cut away all the relationship with us??

how fake you are??when spending time with us~....

I am so disappointed of you....how dare you treat us like a fool~

Now you better run back as far as i cant meet you again once you had did this to us~

Bye~friend....

Keep Your Mouth Shut...Shut Up~

I am really in bad mood now......you had totally influenced my day~!@#$^&*~

If you didn't contribute any things pls....just keep your mouth shut~

If you want to change anythings...pls do it urself and don't depend on me~

I am not free lolx....as you....It is not only my job!!!ok!!!!!

Besides, I have given you a chance to try on it~but u are out of ideas about this....

blablabla.."what feeling dizzy"~

ok fine~i did it.....now you want me to sent my final file to you for changing~

if you can pls...do it yourself at first~

Don't flatter me once you know that i m angry~i hate that which is fake~~

I also had contributed the "thought"....but why you always just ignore what i said and agree others who also said the same "thought" of me.....

Am I not important or i am too kind to you here??I am just the one who is following what you said "just said without action"......

I am not a robot of you......

I didn't speak out~doesn't mean that you can order me~

I didn't try to grab the "glory"~doesn't mean that I didn't contribute anythings~

pls respect me and my "thought"

and don't flatter me with those fake praises~

Choice

There is long time that i didn't write and update my blog....

Don't know why that i wish to express today.....about the CHOICE

Everyday we may need to make many decisions.....

There is a lot of choices are waiting us to be made in our life.

Everyone hopes that there is no regret with all the decisions or choices they made

Everyone know once we made a decision, we might lost something or gain something....

Someone will also say that once you lost something, you may gain something....

How about once i had made the decisions but had lost something and waiting the "gain" with endless time...

They had told me about the "gain" is coming to me....coming to me but it doesn't existed until now.

They lied to me....again and again....

While i'm just waiting like a stupid and excited everyday in heart like a mad person

At the beginning, i had believed that there is success is waiting you one day once you believe it in your deeply heart....

When it's the time that i can prove it in front of them

When it's the time that i can to say that there is no more doubt with it

When it's the time that i can did it with the decision that i had made

It suddenly....suddenly....

All goes wrong....with no latest news...no calls....no replys....

It disappear in the air...such a "lost"

The "lost" have made me depressed and lost the belief of hopes...

The "lost" have made them feel that it is still a mistake that i made without following their directions...

The "lost" have made me lose the power and passion of chasing the "gain"....

There is all goes wrong~

There is all goes wrong~silently.....

1st Time to get a Hair Colouring

Wahwooo....I finally have a new style in this year, 2011

but it is not really new lolz^^

>>just changed my hair colour^^

>>new hair style to welcome the Chinese New Year!!!wahahh

Today, I went to a salon which is located in Cheras...

It is really my 1st time to sit in a salon for my hair colouring....

because normally i just went there for hair cut only....cool experience!!!

Firstly, the professional hairstylist, Jessie has asked me what's the hair colour that i hope to have. But i really have no ideas.

Due to my skin colour tone is quite dark bronze, there is only two colours that i can choose...

>>reddish brown and reddish bronze...

Then, i have choose the reddish bronze

I sit on the chair and get ready to be served like a Queen.

1st step: she had painted the reddish bronze colour on my hair layer and layer.

2nd step: put a big heater machine over my head. It keep turning itself 360 degree above my head. it is quite hot. After that, a "ding"sound is blaring from the machine after 15 minutes. it works like a bread toast machine.

>>my hair is a bread toast?? chocolate favour??wahahha....

These steps have done twice so it will be more natural and clearly to be seen.

Next step: Hair washing

Wahwooo....1st time that i have my hair washing in a salon....it is so comfortable>>>

Actually, before this, I am quite scare of hair washing by others because i had heard that it is so painful. They are using their sharp nails to scrub your hair....wahh...it sound horrible and terrific. However, now I have realize that it is wrong....absolutely wrong!!! Someone is cheating me>>>hehe..XD

Salon services are so nice...I am like a Queen at that moment!!XD

Willing to see my new hairstyle???wahhaha

Next time meeting la.....wahhahah.......A cool experience in 2011!!!

A Change to Me

These several days are the saddest days that i never had in my lifetime...
A lot of bad things are keeping to be happened on me....
The most worriest thing is finally coming to me>>>

I really can't stand for it
I really can't accept it as a truth for me
Even I have cried til my pillows are wet and heart broken til i can't breath over nights and nights
it is not gonna to be changed...my brain is so painful and stressful now...

Long time ago, when i grow up >>
I am so selfish and always just think about of myself,
too greedy to expect my own future life....materialistic life>>>a life that everyone wish to have....

But>>>now...start from now...
I don't want all of this. Those are valueless and worthless for me....
I can exchange all of these to get back the precious...even exchanging my lifetime
I just hope all is going back to normal...
I just want to have a happy and simple life to me.....a happy smile to me every morning
It is just what i want now...that's all....
i don't want to loss it anymore>>i really can't imagine what will i do after this....

I don't want anything..foolish thing...i just want it back....
God bless no matter what is the religion you are...
Pls give it back to me>> a happy life even exchanging my lifetime....

Nothing is more important than it>>>from my deeply mind and heart....