One Year~~2013

Don't know why...recently I have been falling in love with writing blog~especially every Sunday night...
I have love to write it out about my mind, heart and feels...
Maybe I am a person who don't know how to express and show my emotion by my speeches...Or
I really had hidden myself in my real life now??

Due to works, I had realized that I'm so damn miss all in my past: my friends, my studies, my life, my trips, my busy time in Mcd~It's free and random...I miss it~
In my bottom heart, I'm crying why should I be so hard for myself??why should I care other people perspectives, why shouldn't I just follow my heart to do what I like and love with??

Every day, I'm scolded by someone, looked down by someone....go back home late....designing as a following dog~
Everyone will ask me...Wouldn't you be tired?Would you still can stand with it??You have no life!!!
Yes, I know...Ya, I'm tired...Ya, I'm may not stand for it one day....Ya, I have no life now...
But I keep telling myself...maybe cheating myself

They scolded me....fine...It's just some rubbish air...
They looked down me....fine....because they still don't know me...
They asked my do like this like that....fine....I'm still a new comer so can't decide anything...
Works is tired....fine...It's just a process...everyone is like tat too...
Work till so late....fine....I have OT pay...

But I really have no life...I have lost my originality, I have lost my previous happiness, I have lost my smiles, I have lost the enjoyment of being a designer...lost my imagination, I lost the time of discovering my favourite interest...and so on~
The only what I get is just MONEY...
It really meaningless for me...because I'm living in an unhappy life with money...sound so pity...
When I saw my friends posted their artworks, photography and some new design ideas...even though they aren't work under a good company with expected salary~
but they did what they like in their more spare time..designer mind is still in active mood....I'm jealous~seriously....

I give myself one year in this company if I still unhappy with it or there is no opportunity for me to exceed and work as a following dog....I will be leaving this company...to pursuit my new life...maybe it sound ridiculous for others...maybe there is no stable salary...

BUT at least, I'm happy...I have time...I can discover new and do anything more to be an designer ...I will creating and training my style ...appreciate an respect of life....I will be my own boss...Live for myself, no others~

ONE YEAR~2013....

I Will Waiting That Day for Coming~

I know it will be quite a long time & maybe not...

If the day is coming, I will wait for that...

Hope it will be true in one day~as the "realize"is found out..

It's a deal~

It is almost 3 am now...

I just realized that I really hope to write down something during the midnight time~

I know it might be forgot after a year~

I know it might not be back after a year~

A lot of things might be changed after a year~

We live in a busy life..

More than thousand of people are passed by our shoulders...and sights everyday...

It is uncountable and unpredictable...

One day, it might be changed and forgot since the truly appears in a sudden...

It will unexpectedly influence anythings...

It will washed away all the memories...and deals...cruelly

It will be nothing and seem like it never been happened in the past...

Just like a piece of scribbled paper is tear off into thousand pieces of the past which never been reminded or remembered...

It's Nothing who will NEVER remember it or even refresh it in mind...

Just Let it be if after a year~If in that way~

It's just a deal for a year~

Blank Minded

Today is my second day~It's freaking damn suck~

I keep feel that I am super stupid in everything....just like...not look like...is exactly a new user in illustrator even though I had been used it around 3 years..Really shame of it!!!!

I feel that I had keep asking and making mistakes that I shouldn't did it since I am an designer....

However, the "production" is really out of my knowledge...which I never did that perfectly before any printing I had done~It's definitely different with school assignments, internship and other company.

I am sad and afraid of making problems for people....Since today, I swear a lot from now on...

1. Store the knowledge quickly in my brain once they taught me.

2. Never making troubles for people so it will be done instantly.

3. Stay strong when getting some problems and criticism.

4. Take it as advices because it will be one of the key for your future success.

5. More you learn, more you will move forward to your dream and success

6. People born for learning in life and everything. Starting of life is learning new...

7. Get through might be hard since it's just a little storm in the middle part of road. There is always a light beam out there. Brightness is always at the end for us.

8. Learn like others who said we should know anything even though a designer: production, servicing, marketing, advertising, designing, copy writing and all areas.

9. Swear to insist and fully learn all the knowledge in the company before I leave.

10. Prepare well before hunting at the more challenging and horrible outside world.

11. Challenging means you are becoming better once you had successfully done it.

A great Creative Director should knows well done in all progressions and areas. I am learning the beginning part: production.

I am a new sponge with blank minded...I am stupid right now.

Next Target: Meet client within 1 year.

Don't Know Why Recently~

There are a lot of unhappy things are happened around me...

My bad luck had followed me since last year end~when can it be end??WHEN!!!

During these few months, I have tasted a lot such as betray and cheat which are the most I hate in my life...

I seriously don't know why some people never treat friendship is such a precious relationship...

Why they always try to destroy it by behind...BETRAY!!act fake in front of me...

Why you didn't tell me the "News" since I expected you will tell me one day...fine~CHEAT ON ME!!!

Fine...Maybe the word "friendship"that I have took it as a precious gift.... doesn't means anything for you.

Thanks for the "hurt" experience that you gave to me..."common friendship"

But I promised that I never be you who never cherish "friendship"...

I will still love my friends and my family....forever and ever...

I just want to tell you "we are end over here" since BETRAY & CHEAT are never been forgave by "Taurus" Me.....

Sorry and Goodbye~

Stay Back in That Moments

Sometimes...we should stay back and looking around....

No matter is things, incidents, people....or even a tree....clouds....there are part of our eye's views in this life....a precious moment of our life....CHERISH IT!!

Time is ticking, passing by... & flying away cruelly without any excuses...

We are preparing to fly everywhere....away from our nest....

We are preparing to meet millions of people....from everywhere

We are preparing to face more and more challenges and obstacles in our life..

Learn to solve it by ourselves...

Sometimes....we might be getting tired during this long journey...

Wings might get hurt even bleeding deep inside because of the wind or branches..

Learn to stand it...accept it...

Sometimes we might felt lost on the track...doing wrong things...making wrong decisions...

We might be chasing blindly to the materialistic, lifestyle and miss out the precious moments from the surrounding...

Slow down the steps, take a deep breath on the side of the track...

Flying back to the nest...to have a relief...get back the warmness, having the truly advises in the familiar conversation that you might have losing it since quite a period of time.

Finally we are back to the "nest"...

The simple life we had, the simple conversation we had, the comfort feel we had...

We just had catching "the simple and easy moment" even though it's short, a few minutes or second...It's enough and precious when stepping on the track of life...

Cherish the simple~"JUST"

What does a friend mean to you?

Hey guys....do you know what is the meaning of friend for you?

I'm curious that do you think that friendship is that easy to be destroyed?

Fine, i know that there are some different kinds of friends in our life...like say-hello or goodbye friends, good friends, better friends, best friends or even a best best best friends as your brothers or sister...at least they are still your friends...

But why you just suddenly lost yourself from all your friends? Is that because you don't like or want to cool down or what?? Even though we have no rights to know about your reasons, you shouldn't just simply delete your account, contacts and leave behind all your friends and run back!!!

What does we mean when we have fun together in this 3 years?

Are we just the substitutes of your real friends in your country?? Once graduation, you decide to ignore us and cut away all the relationship with us??

how fake you are??when spending time with us~....

I am so disappointed of you....how dare you treat us like a fool~

Now you better run back as far as i cant meet you again once you had did this to us~

Bye~friend....

Keep Your Mouth Shut...Shut Up~

I am really in bad mood now......you had totally influenced my day~!@#$^&*~

If you didn't contribute any things pls....just keep your mouth shut~

If you want to change anythings...pls do it urself and don't depend on me~

I am not free lolx....as you....It is not only my job!!!ok!!!!!

Besides, I have given you a chance to try on it~but u are out of ideas about this....

blablabla.."what feeling dizzy"~

ok fine~i did it.....now you want me to sent my final file to you for changing~

if you can pls...do it yourself at first~

Don't flatter me once you know that i m angry~i hate that which is fake~~

I also had contributed the "thought"....but why you always just ignore what i said and agree others who also said the same "thought" of me.....

Am I not important or i am too kind to you here??I am just the one who is following what you said "just said without action"......

I am not a robot of you......

I didn't speak out~doesn't mean that you can order me~

I didn't try to grab the "glory"~doesn't mean that I didn't contribute anythings~

pls respect me and my "thought"

and don't flatter me with those fake praises~