Recently, there are a lot of thought had passed by my mind~
Inner souls are started talking, whispering, discussing everyday.
For a lot of things~
my future, my destiny, my life, my existence of this world, my philosophy, my meaning of life and happiness.
There are a lot of things had been happened in these two months. It changed me a lot.
Suddenly, I feel that I grow up rapidly in this short period of days. Because I had think through my life indeed.
I had knew what I really want.
Seriously, some people said I'm still new and there are a lot that I have to learn. Yes, indeed.
But the bad cycle in Malaysia advertising is never be ended. It will still continuing appear in my life every day, every year. I do believe other countries are better than us a lot and a lot due to they believe "change" "brave""adventurous""willing to try".....that never happened in Malaysia where always play safe. It totally is not what I want.
Sometime, I really forget what is art, what is design, why I like design. I have totally lose the philosophy of art due to the business consideration. I have forget the original reason and mindset that I love art, design and advertising~...because I believe ideas can change people life and change the world to be better place.
But I believe that I never can be done in here, Malaysia.
So~
I had decided to use my way to continue the spirit of advertising, design and ideas with new era~
Generation-Y, young people never stuck in one place, we did go out to adventure and believe the miracle of changing this world. This is what I want, my way, my thought, my philosophy start from here.
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
What Should I Do?
I'm damn sad this month~
Firstly, there are so many jobs.
Seconds, those are big jobs.
Recently, I have a pitching~that I never handle or involve before.
This time I really did a shit works...
There are so many things have to think off within one week.
Idea, Plan journey, DI, Design, Art direction, Visualise it.
Those technique, knowledge, skills and so on~I have nothing on it.
I'm not good, bad, slow, misunderstood, blur, no skills at anythings.
Seriously, I have totally lose my confidence this time.
I have totally crumble and collapse this time.
I have lost my determination, my courage, my persistence, my dream and my future that I wish before...
All are just a illusion...
Everyday, I do, think, reject, be chased, do, think, reject, be chased, do, think, reject, be chased.
I repeating doing the same things everyday for end up nothing even though just few had been succeed to be proceeded and published.
= I'm tired with this cycle non-stop everyday in my life.
= I'm tired with those discouragement, teases, criticism that hurt me and break my dream indeed.
= I'm also tired of work like hell, losing my time with my family, friends, my exercise time, gaining weight, facial problems and so on...
So, I have
= No Time, No Health, No Friendship and "Familyship"
= Not Fit, Not Pretty, No Life and those totally make me lose my confidence.
I don't work like that but I love this career....I want to learn all the knowledge, skills and thinking.
BUT NOW~
I scare, confuse, seriously don't know what should I do...
THIS JOB MAKE ME SAD, UNHAPPY, LOSING MYSELF, NO LAUGH, STRESS, COMPLICATED BUT END UP DUNNO WORK FOR WHAT...
I just want to be myself, laugh with my family & friends, go sweating, feel the nature...
I DON'T CARE THE MONEY~EARNING~WHICH CAN'T GET BACK MY HAPPY LIFE.
I want to make my other dreams to be reality...*live, happy, laugh, simple*
Firstly, there are so many jobs.
Seconds, those are big jobs.
Recently, I have a pitching~that I never handle or involve before.
This time I really did a shit works...
There are so many things have to think off within one week.
Idea, Plan journey, DI, Design, Art direction, Visualise it.
Those technique, knowledge, skills and so on~I have nothing on it.
I'm not good, bad, slow, misunderstood, blur, no skills at anythings.
Seriously, I have totally lose my confidence this time.
I have totally crumble and collapse this time.
I have lost my determination, my courage, my persistence, my dream and my future that I wish before...
All are just a illusion...
Everyday, I do, think, reject, be chased, do, think, reject, be chased, do, think, reject, be chased.
I repeating doing the same things everyday for end up nothing even though just few had been succeed to be proceeded and published.
= I'm tired with this cycle non-stop everyday in my life.
= I'm tired with those discouragement, teases, criticism that hurt me and break my dream indeed.
= I'm also tired of work like hell, losing my time with my family, friends, my exercise time, gaining weight, facial problems and so on...
So, I have
= No Time, No Health, No Friendship and "Familyship"
= Not Fit, Not Pretty, No Life and those totally make me lose my confidence.
I don't work like that but I love this career....I want to learn all the knowledge, skills and thinking.
BUT NOW~
I scare, confuse, seriously don't know what should I do...
THIS JOB MAKE ME SAD, UNHAPPY, LOSING MYSELF, NO LAUGH, STRESS, COMPLICATED BUT END UP DUNNO WORK FOR WHAT...
I just want to be myself, laugh with my family & friends, go sweating, feel the nature...
I DON'T CARE THE MONEY~EARNING~WHICH CAN'T GET BACK MY HAPPY LIFE.
I want to make my other dreams to be reality...*live, happy, laugh, simple*
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Why Everything Goes Wrong After I'm Back???Why
I'm damn sad and frustrated now...is it my bad luck is coming to me this month??
Why all is happened in the same time??
I know I didn't finish to handle it til the end due to I went to China...but I never know why it become like that which worse than what I imagined...This is one of my favourite campaign, it's my baby...but I cant imagined why the final outcomes become like that due to I went to China and you guys doesn't really care of it??Or are we really not on the same line??Why why why become like that??I know I will be scolded next Monday due to you all really aren't responsible to handle these...Why why why?????????My campaign gone...my boss scold...works ruined due to I went China!!!!and you guys didn't care and handle it well....All works that I have done hard had become rubbish....!!!!
Secondly, I have a lot of pending jobs.... initiatives...that haven't finished...while you always think you work alone and all depend on you...sound like you are damn geng and all came from you....You enough la..not only you have work...I also have...I cant help you doesn't mean I leave you alone and do it!!!!!!If you feel in that way then I think you better work with other who are free to help you all the time...I am sien to work with you that always think your ideas is the best~~~~kkla...you are senior....whatever you said and hurt me...is correct one...I don't care...
I plan to do it today but find out I can't do it at home due to I don't have all the files...means I should work it in office but I have totally no time in office....everyone chase these and that...I have no time to do it....I'm really out of time!!!!
Besides, I need to do another job today but my team still haven't fix it and send to me....I cant start and also my yahoo mail totally blocked...I cant open my mail!!!!take files....The days after I back to work....are ruined....everything goes wrong!!!why why why????I want block you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why all is happened in the same time??
I know I didn't finish to handle it til the end due to I went to China...but I never know why it become like that which worse than what I imagined...This is one of my favourite campaign, it's my baby...but I cant imagined why the final outcomes become like that due to I went to China and you guys doesn't really care of it??Or are we really not on the same line??Why why why become like that??I know I will be scolded next Monday due to you all really aren't responsible to handle these...Why why why?????????My campaign gone...my boss scold...works ruined due to I went China!!!!and you guys didn't care and handle it well....All works that I have done hard had become rubbish....!!!!
Secondly, I have a lot of pending jobs.... initiatives...that haven't finished...while you always think you work alone and all depend on you...sound like you are damn geng and all came from you....You enough la..not only you have work...I also have...I cant help you doesn't mean I leave you alone and do it!!!!!!If you feel in that way then I think you better work with other who are free to help you all the time...I am sien to work with you that always think your ideas is the best~~~~kkla...you are senior....whatever you said and hurt me...is correct one...I don't care...
I plan to do it today but find out I can't do it at home due to I don't have all the files...means I should work it in office but I have totally no time in office....everyone chase these and that...I have no time to do it....I'm really out of time!!!!
Besides, I need to do another job today but my team still haven't fix it and send to me....I cant start and also my yahoo mail totally blocked...I cant open my mail!!!!take files....The days after I back to work....are ruined....everything goes wrong!!!why why why????I want block you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, July 29, 2012
You Are Not Me~So Don't Tell Me Who to be
This is the song that totally express my feelings through its lyrics
"I hate to break it to you, ...but I' m not drowning"
"Who cares if you disagree, you are not me".....
"So you dare tell me who to be? who died and made....."
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Is You Force Me to Do This for You!!!!Motherfucker...
I never been this rude before...but you had succeed to force me to say such things for you!!!!!
Motherfucker~~bitch~~bullock~bastard~~slut~~~
You had spoilt my weekend again and again!!!!
Last Saturday and Sunday rush the stuffs for you...
This week is the same again!!! Besides, this is the last mins brief for me...
This is you and your client communication problem..is not mine...
Why everything is last mins...never prepare anythings for me...
always ask me wait wait and wait....
Bastard~do you think I am a doctor? Always on call 36 hours?? Your client still act slow to give me the copy!!!!!
I had my plan on Saturday and Sunday....now you spoilt it...always ask me to standby at HOME!!!
Idiot~I had my plan to go somewhere...while you attend a talk now!!!!then how's is my stuffs?? wait till late of afternoon??Fuck off!!!!How's My afternoon!!!!!!!!!!!!
You have no life but don't think and make me that I am same to you!!!I have my own life!!!!
You make yourself on being a working slave....but I'M NOT!!!!!
Motherfucker~~~~once you spoilt my weekend, it will totally sopilt my whole week in the office!!!
My passion spirit is not for you!!!!is for my boss~don't act like my boss!!!!!
Is your client problem~she is slow and last mins....no one will help her finish those rubbish on time~
TAT'S YOU BOTH PROBLEM!!!!!!!...Bastard!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Never spoilt my weekend again!!!if not I will just ignore what you give it to me "LAST MINUTES"....
IDIOTS!!!!!
Motherfucker~~bitch~~bullock~bastard~~slut~~~
You had spoilt my weekend again and again!!!!
Last Saturday and Sunday rush the stuffs for you...
This week is the same again!!! Besides, this is the last mins brief for me...
This is you and your client communication problem..is not mine...
Why everything is last mins...never prepare anythings for me...
always ask me wait wait and wait....
Bastard~do you think I am a doctor? Always on call 36 hours?? Your client still act slow to give me the copy!!!!!
I had my plan on Saturday and Sunday....now you spoilt it...always ask me to standby at HOME!!!
Idiot~I had my plan to go somewhere...while you attend a talk now!!!!then how's is my stuffs?? wait till late of afternoon??Fuck off!!!!How's My afternoon!!!!!!!!!!!!
You have no life but don't think and make me that I am same to you!!!I have my own life!!!!
You make yourself on being a working slave....but I'M NOT!!!!!
Motherfucker~~~~once you spoilt my weekend, it will totally sopilt my whole week in the office!!!
My passion spirit is not for you!!!!is for my boss~don't act like my boss!!!!!
Is your client problem~she is slow and last mins....no one will help her finish those rubbish on time~
TAT'S YOU BOTH PROBLEM!!!!!!!...Bastard!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Never spoilt my weekend again!!!if not I will just ignore what you give it to me "LAST MINUTES"....
IDIOTS!!!!!
Sunday, June 17, 2012
I Have Been Different From Now On
I feel I have been changed after attending an amazing training during this weekend,
In this training, I realize a lot about myself.
I feel I had find back myself who someone always hidden in my deep heart.
Beside, I had realized that how can I be a better man who I wish to be..
Before the training,
I always unsatisfied about my works, colleagues, boss and anythings in works..
I am frustrate everyday, complaining everyday, always feel everyone wears mask in reality life so fuck off.
I start to hate life, hate my works, hate everyone who are unfriendly with me.
Becoming quiet and keep silence all the time, keep distance from boss and so on.
Somehow I had forget how to speak out, present, explain my things, work or express myself.
I feel I had lost the ability to speak and express.Hiding deep and deeper in my heart.
I had try to escape myself from work in office and keep planing to do this,do that to leave my working life.
It means that I had totally forgotten what is my passion, my dream, my strength, my confidence, my everything and keep re-size myself smaller smaller and smaller among the people. Just like a supper little puppet walking lost in this busy noisy city.
After the training,
I find out why I'm so far with each other, why I feel fake from others, why I can't just like others have a nice and happy relationship and chitchat topics with boss and certain colleagues.
The answer is I am the one who made this happen due to I never opened myself to people first, I never be showing truly myself to people first. It just like people never be honest or trust you once you are also never be honest or trust to them. It is some kind of reflection of myself. How they did to you just as how you did to them.
Secondly, before this, I feel that is situation made me be like this. I blame situation, blame environment, blame reality world to make me keep quiet or silent. However, I'm wrong. I lost the ability to speak out or express due to myself, due to my stupid inner face and image. I'm not dare to speak out my opinion because I afraid of speaking wrong things or in wrong timing, afraid of being judged, afraid of rejected, afraid of being look stupid when saying wrong things. Actually, it just about that I stupidly care my face. I thought this is the way to keep my confidence since didn't be judge and failed but oppositely it had entirely bring me down, I lost my confidence silently and slowly instead.
Thirdly, I had luckily met all of the mentors, Ben, Joseph, Richie, Alvin and Hasim. All of them are the kind of powerful people in Advertising industry such as GM, ECD, CD or brilliant strategy planner,Draft. They look young, professional, passionate about everything what they did, how they climb until this high level.
They had shown me how to be a great people like them, just like Ben, the way he speak, his concentration of noting down what he listen, learn even though he already be a GM. He is still hardworking, self-learning from the mistakes, and kind to say goodbye to everyone. He is polite and tell us a lot of being better and better.
Keeping on is Joseph, a cute strategy thinker and good guider for me. He is willing to teach us a lot, like what should we think when we have received a brief, guide us how to analysis our thinking to be a key message or ideas, he also teach us how to help each other to interpret our thinking by speaking out anything in our mind instead of just work ourselves separately, brainstorming ourselves lonely. Beside, he had trying to pull me back, encourage me to speak and express more until I realize I'm still creatively functioning in my brain that I had in Uni life. He is as same as SONNY, who our group leader.
Thanks SONNY so much, the one who able might can read me, encourage me, pull me back from the dark corner, making me feel more confident to show, express, approach.
Thanks everyone who's with me in "SHINE" training, from 15 June- 17 June 2012.
I will always remember to be real me, open myself to everyone, set my intention who and what I want to be, make a different since today.
In this training, I realize a lot about myself.
I feel I had find back myself who someone always hidden in my deep heart.
Beside, I had realized that how can I be a better man who I wish to be..
Before the training,
I always unsatisfied about my works, colleagues, boss and anythings in works..
I am frustrate everyday, complaining everyday, always feel everyone wears mask in reality life so fuck off.
I start to hate life, hate my works, hate everyone who are unfriendly with me.
Becoming quiet and keep silence all the time, keep distance from boss and so on.
Somehow I had forget how to speak out, present, explain my things, work or express myself.
I feel I had lost the ability to speak and express.Hiding deep and deeper in my heart.
I had try to escape myself from work in office and keep planing to do this,do that to leave my working life.
It means that I had totally forgotten what is my passion, my dream, my strength, my confidence, my everything and keep re-size myself smaller smaller and smaller among the people. Just like a supper little puppet walking lost in this busy noisy city.
After the training,
I find out why I'm so far with each other, why I feel fake from others, why I can't just like others have a nice and happy relationship and chitchat topics with boss and certain colleagues.
The answer is I am the one who made this happen due to I never opened myself to people first, I never be showing truly myself to people first. It just like people never be honest or trust you once you are also never be honest or trust to them. It is some kind of reflection of myself. How they did to you just as how you did to them.
Secondly, before this, I feel that is situation made me be like this. I blame situation, blame environment, blame reality world to make me keep quiet or silent. However, I'm wrong. I lost the ability to speak out or express due to myself, due to my stupid inner face and image. I'm not dare to speak out my opinion because I afraid of speaking wrong things or in wrong timing, afraid of being judged, afraid of rejected, afraid of being look stupid when saying wrong things. Actually, it just about that I stupidly care my face. I thought this is the way to keep my confidence since didn't be judge and failed but oppositely it had entirely bring me down, I lost my confidence silently and slowly instead.
Thirdly, I had luckily met all of the mentors, Ben, Joseph, Richie, Alvin and Hasim. All of them are the kind of powerful people in Advertising industry such as GM, ECD, CD or brilliant strategy planner,Draft. They look young, professional, passionate about everything what they did, how they climb until this high level.
They had shown me how to be a great people like them, just like Ben, the way he speak, his concentration of noting down what he listen, learn even though he already be a GM. He is still hardworking, self-learning from the mistakes, and kind to say goodbye to everyone. He is polite and tell us a lot of being better and better.
Keeping on is Joseph, a cute strategy thinker and good guider for me. He is willing to teach us a lot, like what should we think when we have received a brief, guide us how to analysis our thinking to be a key message or ideas, he also teach us how to help each other to interpret our thinking by speaking out anything in our mind instead of just work ourselves separately, brainstorming ourselves lonely. Beside, he had trying to pull me back, encourage me to speak and express more until I realize I'm still creatively functioning in my brain that I had in Uni life. He is as same as SONNY, who our group leader.
Thanks SONNY so much, the one who able might can read me, encourage me, pull me back from the dark corner, making me feel more confident to show, express, approach.
Thanks everyone who's with me in "SHINE" training, from 15 June- 17 June 2012.
I will always remember to be real me, open myself to everyone, set my intention who and what I want to be, make a different since today.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
A Short Coffee Time
Today, I wrote this post which doesn't mean that I'm sad.
Think of another way, I was happy and appreciate what I have now.
Firstly, I should thanks to one of my friends who had introduced me a great place where I can have a relief and find back myself.
At the beginning, I decided to go there alone with my laptop, sinking in music rhythms and enjoying a cup of nice coffee. However, I had decided to ask few friends to join me due to I had knew that there are some problems is happened in their life. I knew they are tired of life, unhappy with their current situations and so on. Hence, I hope to share with them about this new place where they might can to have a relief as me.
Previously, I can say that we are best friends to each other but we never share our unhappiness stuffs to each other since we just hope to bring happiness to each other. However, today, we had shared everything no matter is happy or unhappy or even a secret. We know more and better to each other so I know that "friends doesn't mean just bring you the happiness and even cure you about your scars, just be a listener"...
In our conversations, I had found out everyone had their own problems in their deep heart no matter is works, friends or family. They might looks tough and strong in normal days but somehow there is somewhere bleeding in their heart, in their life that we never realize or know. People always face the different problems in their own life or hiding themselves in somewhere everyday. Only the privy will know the difficulties and taste the hurt.
Seriously I had know a lot about my friends today maybe due to the environment. They had released and spoke out their feel and thought. I'm happy to hear that. I introduced this place for them due to doesn't mean that I want to know the gossip of them. Instead, I just hope them might have a place to release even though just awhile for themselves alone.
Love you guys~appreciate what we have done tonight~Sweet dream^^
Think of another way, I was happy and appreciate what I have now.
Firstly, I should thanks to one of my friends who had introduced me a great place where I can have a relief and find back myself.
At the beginning, I decided to go there alone with my laptop, sinking in music rhythms and enjoying a cup of nice coffee. However, I had decided to ask few friends to join me due to I had knew that there are some problems is happened in their life. I knew they are tired of life, unhappy with their current situations and so on. Hence, I hope to share with them about this new place where they might can to have a relief as me.
Previously, I can say that we are best friends to each other but we never share our unhappiness stuffs to each other since we just hope to bring happiness to each other. However, today, we had shared everything no matter is happy or unhappy or even a secret. We know more and better to each other so I know that "friends doesn't mean just bring you the happiness and even cure you about your scars, just be a listener"...
In our conversations, I had found out everyone had their own problems in their deep heart no matter is works, friends or family. They might looks tough and strong in normal days but somehow there is somewhere bleeding in their heart, in their life that we never realize or know. People always face the different problems in their own life or hiding themselves in somewhere everyday. Only the privy will know the difficulties and taste the hurt.
Seriously I had know a lot about my friends today maybe due to the environment. They had released and spoke out their feel and thought. I'm happy to hear that. I introduced this place for them due to doesn't mean that I want to know the gossip of them. Instead, I just hope them might have a place to release even though just awhile for themselves alone.
Love you guys~appreciate what we have done tonight~Sweet dream^^
Sunday, April 22, 2012
One Year~~2013
Don't know why...recently I have been falling in love with writing blog~especially every Sunday night...
I have love to write it out about my mind, heart and feels...
Maybe I am a person who don't know how to express and show my emotion by my speeches...Or
I really had hidden myself in my real life now??
Due to works, I had realized that I'm so damn miss all in my past: my friends, my studies, my life, my trips, my busy time in Mcd~It's free and random...I miss it~
In my bottom heart, I'm crying why should I be so hard for myself??why should I care other people perspectives, why shouldn't I just follow my heart to do what I like and love with??
Every day, I'm scolded by someone, looked down by someone....go back home late....designing as a following dog~
Everyone will ask me...Wouldn't you be tired?Would you still can stand with it??You have no life!!!
Yes, I know...Ya, I'm tired...Ya, I'm may not stand for it one day....Ya, I have no life now...
But I keep telling myself...maybe cheating myself
They scolded me....fine...It's just some rubbish air...
They looked down me....fine....because they still don't know me...
They asked my do like this like that....fine....I'm still a new comer so can't decide anything...
Works is tired....fine...It's just a process...everyone is like tat too...
Work till so late....fine....I have OT pay...
But I really have no life...I have lost my originality, I have lost my previous happiness, I have lost my smiles, I have lost the enjoyment of being a designer...lost my imagination, I lost the time of discovering my favourite interest...and so on~
The only what I get is just MONEY...
It really meaningless for me...because I'm living in an unhappy life with money...sound so pity...
When I saw my friends posted their artworks, photography and some new design ideas...even though they aren't work under a good company with expected salary~
but they did what they like in their more spare time..designer mind is still in active mood....I'm jealous~seriously....
I give myself one year in this company if I still unhappy with it or there is no opportunity for me to exceed and work as a following dog....I will be leaving this company...to pursuit my new life...maybe it sound ridiculous for others...maybe there is no stable salary...
BUT at least, I'm happy...I have time...I can discover new and do anything more to be an designer ...I will creating and training my style ...appreciate an respect of life....I will be my own boss...Live for myself, no others~
ONE YEAR~2013....
I have love to write it out about my mind, heart and feels...
Maybe I am a person who don't know how to express and show my emotion by my speeches...Or
I really had hidden myself in my real life now??
Due to works, I had realized that I'm so damn miss all in my past: my friends, my studies, my life, my trips, my busy time in Mcd~It's free and random...I miss it~
In my bottom heart, I'm crying why should I be so hard for myself??why should I care other people perspectives, why shouldn't I just follow my heart to do what I like and love with??
Every day, I'm scolded by someone, looked down by someone....go back home late....designing as a following dog~
Everyone will ask me...Wouldn't you be tired?Would you still can stand with it??You have no life!!!
Yes, I know...Ya, I'm tired...Ya, I'm may not stand for it one day....Ya, I have no life now...
But I keep telling myself...maybe cheating myself
They scolded me....fine...It's just some rubbish air...
They looked down me....fine....because they still don't know me...
They asked my do like this like that....fine....I'm still a new comer so can't decide anything...
Works is tired....fine...It's just a process...everyone is like tat too...
Work till so late....fine....I have OT pay...
But I really have no life...I have lost my originality, I have lost my previous happiness, I have lost my smiles, I have lost the enjoyment of being a designer...lost my imagination, I lost the time of discovering my favourite interest...and so on~
The only what I get is just MONEY...
It really meaningless for me...because I'm living in an unhappy life with money...sound so pity...
When I saw my friends posted their artworks, photography and some new design ideas...even though they aren't work under a good company with expected salary~
but they did what they like in their more spare time..designer mind is still in active mood....I'm jealous~seriously....
I give myself one year in this company if I still unhappy with it or there is no opportunity for me to exceed and work as a following dog....I will be leaving this company...to pursuit my new life...maybe it sound ridiculous for others...maybe there is no stable salary...
BUT at least, I'm happy...I have time...I can discover new and do anything more to be an designer ...I will creating and training my style ...appreciate an respect of life....I will be my own boss...Live for myself, no others~
ONE YEAR~2013....
Friday, April 6, 2012
I Will Waiting That Day for Coming~
I know it will be quite a long time & maybe not...
If the day is coming, I will wait for that...
Hope it will be true in one day~as the "realize"is found out..
It's a deal~
It is almost 3 am now...
I just realized that I really hope to write down something during the midnight time~
I know it might be forgot after a year~
I know it might not be back after a year~
A lot of things might be changed after a year~
We live in a busy life..
More than thousand of people are passed by our shoulders...and sights everyday...
It is uncountable and unpredictable...
One day, it might be changed and forgot since the truly appears in a sudden...
It will unexpectedly influence anythings...
It will washed away all the memories...and deals...cruelly
It will be nothing and seem like it never been happened in the past...
Just like a piece of scribbled paper is tear off into thousand pieces of the past which never been reminded or remembered...
It's Nothing who will NEVER remember it or even refresh it in mind...
Just Let it be if after a year~If in that way~
It's just a deal for a year~
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Blank Minded
Today is my second day~It's freaking damn suck~
I keep feel that I am super stupid in everything....just like...not look like...is exactly a new user in illustrator even though I had been used it around 3 years..Really shame of it!!!!
I feel that I had keep asking and making mistakes that I shouldn't did it since I am an designer....
However, the "production" is really out of my knowledge...which I never did that perfectly before any printing I had done~It's definitely different with school assignments, internship and other company.
I am sad and afraid of making problems for people....Since today, I swear a lot from now on...
1. Store the knowledge quickly in my brain once they taught me.
2. Never making troubles for people so it will be done instantly.
3. Stay strong when getting some problems and criticism.
4. Take it as advices because it will be one of the key for your future success.
5. More you learn, more you will move forward to your dream and success
6. People born for learning in life and everything. Starting of life is learning new...
7. Get through might be hard since it's just a little storm in the middle part of road. There is always a light beam out there. Brightness is always at the end for us.
8. Learn like others who said we should know anything even though a designer: production, servicing, marketing, advertising, designing, copy writing and all areas.
9. Swear to insist and fully learn all the knowledge in the company before I leave.
10. Prepare well before hunting at the more challenging and horrible outside world.
11. Challenging means you are becoming better once you had successfully done it.
A great Creative Director should knows well done in all progressions and areas. I am learning the beginning part: production.
I am a new sponge with blank minded...I am stupid right now.
Next Target: Meet client within 1 year.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Don't Know Why Recently~
There are a lot of unhappy things are happened around me...
My bad luck had followed me since last year end~when can it be end??WHEN!!!
During these few months, I have tasted a lot such as betray and cheat which are the most I hate in my life...
I seriously don't know why some people never treat friendship is such a precious relationship...
Why they always try to destroy it by behind...BETRAY!!act fake in front of me...
Why you didn't tell me the "News" since I expected you will tell me one day...fine~CHEAT ON ME!!!
Fine...Maybe the word "friendship"that I have took it as a precious gift.... doesn't means anything for you.
Thanks for the "hurt" experience that you gave to me..."common friendship"
But I promised that I never be you who never cherish "friendship"...
I will still love my friends and my family....forever and ever...
I just want to tell you "we are end over here" since BETRAY & CHEAT are never been forgave by "Taurus" Me.....
Sorry and Goodbye~
Monday, January 2, 2012
Stay Back in That Moments
Sometimes...we should stay back and looking around....
No matter is things, incidents, people....or even a tree....clouds....there are part of our eye's views in this life....a precious moment of our life....CHERISH IT!!
Time is ticking, passing by... & flying away cruelly without any excuses...
We are preparing to fly everywhere....away from our nest....
We are preparing to meet millions of people....from everywhere
We are preparing to face more and more challenges and obstacles in our life..
Learn to solve it by ourselves...
Sometimes....we might be getting tired during this long journey...
Wings might get hurt even bleeding deep inside because of the wind or branches..
Learn to stand it...accept it...
Sometimes we might felt lost on the track...doing wrong things...making wrong decisions...
We might be chasing blindly to the materialistic, lifestyle and miss out the precious moments from the surrounding...
Slow down the steps, take a deep breath on the side of the track...
Flying back to the nest...to have a relief...get back the warmness, having the truly advises in the familiar conversation that you might have losing it since quite a period of time.
Finally we are back to the "nest"...
The simple life we had, the simple conversation we had, the comfort feel we had...
We just had catching "the simple and easy moment" even though it's short, a few minutes or second...It's enough and precious when stepping on the track of life...
Cherish the simple~"JUST"
Thursday, December 1, 2011
What does a friend mean to you?
Hey guys....do you know what is the meaning of friend for you?
I'm curious that do you think that friendship is that easy to be destroyed?
Fine, i know that there are some different kinds of friends in our life...like say-hello or goodbye friends, good friends, better friends, best friends or even a best best best friends as your brothers or sister...at least they are still your friends...
But why you just suddenly lost yourself from all your friends? Is that because you don't like or want to cool down or what?? Even though we have no rights to know about your reasons, you shouldn't just simply delete your account, contacts and leave behind all your friends and run back!!!
What does we mean when we have fun together in this 3 years?
Are we just the substitutes of your real friends in your country?? Once graduation, you decide to ignore us and cut away all the relationship with us??
how fake you are??when spending time with us~....
I am so disappointed of you....how dare you treat us like a fool~
Now you better run back as far as i cant meet you again once you had did this to us~
Bye~friend....
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Keep Your Mouth Shut...Shut Up~
I am really in bad mood now......you had totally influenced my day~!@#$^&*~
If you didn't contribute any things pls....just keep your mouth shut~
If you want to change anythings...pls do it urself and don't depend on me~
I am not free lolx....as you....It is not only my job!!!ok!!!!!
Besides, I have given you a chance to try on it~but u are out of ideas about this....
blablabla.."what feeling dizzy"~
ok fine~i did it.....now you want me to sent my final file to you for changing~
if you can pls...do it yourself at first~
Don't flatter me once you know that i m angry~i hate that which is fake~~
I also had contributed the "thought"....but why you always just ignore what i said and agree others who also said the same "thought" of me.....
Am I not important or i am too kind to you here??I am just the one who is following what you said "just said without action"......
I am not a robot of you......
I didn't speak out~doesn't mean that you can order me~
I didn't try to grab the "glory"~doesn't mean that I didn't contribute anythings~
pls respect me and my "thought"
and don't flatter me with those fake praises~
Monday, July 11, 2011
Choice
There is long time that i didn't write and update my blog....
Don't know why that i wish to express today.....about the CHOICE
Everyday we may need to make many decisions.....
There is a lot of choices are waiting us to be made in our life.
Everyone hopes that there is no regret with all the decisions or choices they made
Everyone know once we made a decision, we might lost something or gain something....
Someone will also say that once you lost something, you may gain something....
How about once i had made the decisions but had lost something and waiting the "gain" with endless time...
They had told me about the "gain" is coming to me....coming to me but it doesn't existed until now.
They lied to me....again and again....
While i'm just waiting like a stupid and excited everyday in heart like a mad person
At the beginning, i had believed that there is success is waiting you one day once you believe it in your deeply heart....
When it's the time that i can prove it in front of them
When it's the time that i can to say that there is no more doubt with it
When it's the time that i can did it with the decision that i had made
It suddenly....suddenly....
All goes wrong....with no latest news...no calls....no replys....
It disappear in the air...such a "lost"
The "lost" have made me depressed and lost the belief of hopes...
The "lost" have made them feel that it is still a mistake that i made without following their directions...
The "lost" have made me lose the power and passion of chasing the "gain"....
There is all goes wrong~
There is all goes wrong~silently.....
Monday, January 17, 2011
1st Time to get a Hair Colouring
Wahwooo....I finally have a new style in this year, 2011
Today, I went to a salon which is located in Cheras...
but it is not really new lolz^^
>>just changed my hair colour^^
>>new hair style to welcome the Chinese New Year!!!wahahh
Today, I went to a salon which is located in Cheras...
It is really my 1st time to sit in a salon for my hair colouring....
because normally i just went there for hair cut only....cool experience!!!
Firstly, the professional hairstylist, Jessie has asked me what's the hair colour that i hope to have. But i really have no ideas.
Due to my skin colour tone is quite dark bronze, there is only two colours that i can choose...
>>reddish brown and reddish bronze...
Then, i have choose the reddish bronze
I sit on the chair and get ready to be served like a Queen.
1st step: she had painted the reddish bronze colour on my hair layer and layer.
2nd step: put a big heater machine over my head. It keep turning itself 360 degree above my head. it is quite hot. After that, a "ding"sound is blaring from the machine after 15 minutes. it works like a bread toast machine.
>>my hair is a bread toast?? chocolate favour??wahahha....
These steps have done twice so it will be more natural and clearly to be seen.
Next step: Hair washing
Wahwooo....1st time that i have my hair washing in a salon....it is so comfortable>>>
Actually, before this, I am quite scare of hair washing by others because i had heard that it is so painful. They are using their sharp nails to scrub your hair....wahh...it sound horrible and terrific. However, now I have realize that it is wrong....absolutely wrong!!! Someone is cheating me>>>hehe..XD
Salon services are so nice...I am like a Queen at that moment!!XD
Willing to see my new hairstyle???wahhaha
Next time meeting la.....wahhahah.......A cool experience in 2011!!!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
A Change to Me
These several days are the saddest days that i never had in my lifetime...
A lot of bad things are keeping to be happened on me....
The most worriest thing is finally coming to me>>>
I really can't stand for it
I really can't accept it as a truth for me
Even I have cried til my pillows are wet and heart broken til i can't breath over nights and nights
it is not gonna to be changed...my brain is so painful and stressful now...
Long time ago, when i grow up >>
I am so selfish and always just think about of myself,
too greedy to expect my own future life....materialistic life>>>a life that everyone wish to have....
But>>>now...start from now...
I don't want all of this. Those are valueless and worthless for me....
I can exchange all of these to get back the precious...even exchanging my lifetime
I just hope all is going back to normal...
I just want to have a happy and simple life to me.....a happy smile to me every morning
It is just what i want now...that's all....
i don't want to loss it anymore>>i really can't imagine what will i do after this....
I don't want anything..foolish thing...i just want it back....
God bless no matter what is the religion you are...
Pls give it back to me>> a happy life even exchanging my lifetime....
Nothing is more important than it>>>from my deeply mind and heart....
A lot of bad things are keeping to be happened on me....
The most worriest thing is finally coming to me>>>
I really can't stand for it
I really can't accept it as a truth for me
Even I have cried til my pillows are wet and heart broken til i can't breath over nights and nights
it is not gonna to be changed...my brain is so painful and stressful now...
Long time ago, when i grow up >>
I am so selfish and always just think about of myself,
too greedy to expect my own future life....materialistic life>>>a life that everyone wish to have....
But>>>now...start from now...
I don't want all of this. Those are valueless and worthless for me....
I can exchange all of these to get back the precious...even exchanging my lifetime
I just hope all is going back to normal...
I just want to have a happy and simple life to me.....a happy smile to me every morning
It is just what i want now...that's all....
i don't want to loss it anymore>>i really can't imagine what will i do after this....
I don't want anything..foolish thing...i just want it back....
God bless no matter what is the religion you are...
Pls give it back to me>> a happy life even exchanging my lifetime....
Nothing is more important than it>>>from my deeply mind and heart....
Friday, October 8, 2010
You Again?
It is really a true story for me in my past, kindergarden life....
Even though i am just a little kid who is 6 years old, i still can remember that day...
He is a fat guy who I won't forget in my life. Actually, we don't know about each other because we are different classes. One day, our teacher had combined our class together for studying a art class. At the beginning, I am so happy. After that, I had going to sharpen my pencil and standing in front of the dustbin.
At that moment, the fat guy came toward me and also sharpen his pencil. he was standing beside me. We have started to chat some funny topic. Suddenly, I am carelessly prick his hand with my pencil. He wasn't bleeding at all but i m still kept saying sorry to him. However, his face turned into red instantly and used his pencil prick on my hand rudely. his pencil really penetrate my skin. There is a hole on my hand with a little bit bleeding. The fat guy just ran away angrily.
I had told my teacher however the teacher just ignored me and said me that I frustrate her. She thought it is just a small wound and not a big deal for her. When I backed to my house, I have told my parent. My parents are so worried and using the tap water to rinse my wound. Nowadays, the wound had become a scar on my hand. This scar always remind me that how the fat guy and the teacher treated me at that time.
In coincidence, I have met the fat guy in my secondary school. He seen like totally forget what he did before. At that time, I feel like it is fine to me right now and I had forgiven him. However, i won't be friend with him anymore. He is just transparent in front of me forever!!!
Enjoying my life without other unhappy memories again even though there is a scar.
Therefore, check this out the new movie right now: You Again

Who is your rival in your past??? Discover it when you are enjoying this movie in the cinema....^^
Thanks^^
Even though i am just a little kid who is 6 years old, i still can remember that day...
He is a fat guy who I won't forget in my life. Actually, we don't know about each other because we are different classes. One day, our teacher had combined our class together for studying a art class. At the beginning, I am so happy. After that, I had going to sharpen my pencil and standing in front of the dustbin.
At that moment, the fat guy came toward me and also sharpen his pencil. he was standing beside me. We have started to chat some funny topic. Suddenly, I am carelessly prick his hand with my pencil. He wasn't bleeding at all but i m still kept saying sorry to him. However, his face turned into red instantly and used his pencil prick on my hand rudely. his pencil really penetrate my skin. There is a hole on my hand with a little bit bleeding. The fat guy just ran away angrily.
I had told my teacher however the teacher just ignored me and said me that I frustrate her. She thought it is just a small wound and not a big deal for her. When I backed to my house, I have told my parent. My parents are so worried and using the tap water to rinse my wound. Nowadays, the wound had become a scar on my hand. This scar always remind me that how the fat guy and the teacher treated me at that time.
In coincidence, I have met the fat guy in my secondary school. He seen like totally forget what he did before. At that time, I feel like it is fine to me right now and I had forgiven him. However, i won't be friend with him anymore. He is just transparent in front of me forever!!!
Enjoying my life without other unhappy memories again even though there is a scar.
Therefore, check this out the new movie right now: You Again
Who is your rival in your past??? Discover it when you are enjoying this movie in the cinema....^^
Thanks^^
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Ampang Yong Tau Foo
Hello Guys....new food destination
Yesterday, I have made a payment for something fee in Ampang with my family...
Actually, it is my first time go to Ampang especially the Ampany Kampung Baru..
My father said that Ampang Kampung Baru is the third biggest kampung baru during the period of the World War II. WOOOooo....it sound like so historical village as same as my living place ( Serdang Baru ). Beside that, I heard that there is a Korean town in there too. A lot of nice Korean food restaurants are opened in the Korean town at night. Wahh.....it is gorgeous!!!!
When I arrive the ampang, there is a lot of f shops and food restaurants in the town. I also have seen some of the shops are written in Korean words....In the Ampany Kamoung Baru, there are many old and historical buildings which look like Kuala Lumpur or Ipoh. It is really a Kampung Baru>>A lot of Chinese, traditional foods, full of nostalgia feel....There is a lot of hills are around the town... that my village doesn't have!!!

After we had make the payment, my father and brother said that the "Ampang Yong Tau Foo" is so well known and delicious since many years ago...and asked us must have a try of it but they are not really remember the place... we have asked few of villagers there about the address of the famous "Ampang Yong Tau Foo". After few minutes, we finally found it.

At the corner of the street, there are three Ampany Yong Tau Foo Restaurant which are so famous one...My brother said the "Foong Foong (鸿鸿) Yong Tau Foo" is nicer.Unluckily, it is closed at that day >.<... There are another two which is "Homeland (家乡)Yong Tau Foo" and "Orchard View (甜园) Yong Tau Foo".Then, we have chosen the" Orchard View"one.
We have order a lot of Yong Tau Foo. The most delicious that I like that is the "Bai Tau Foo" and the " Fried Dumpling". It is so different with other shops...they have put more ingredients inside. The soup of the "Bai Tau Foo" have to drink because it is so tasty. It is cooked by the "shang tang" (上汤).
I hope I can go the Korean town and taste the traditional Korean food in Ampang next time^^...
If you interest of this restaurant, you can refer the more info in google map
Orchard View Yong Tau Foo Ampang, Selangor
621, Jalan Merdeka, Ampang Baru,
68000 Ampang, Selangor
Tel: 03-42917808
*They may be closed in on certain time so make a call before you want to go*
Yesterday, I have made a payment for something fee in Ampang with my family...
Actually, it is my first time go to Ampang especially the Ampany Kampung Baru..
My father said that Ampang Kampung Baru is the third biggest kampung baru during the period of the World War II. WOOOooo....it sound like so historical village as same as my living place ( Serdang Baru ). Beside that, I heard that there is a Korean town in there too. A lot of nice Korean food restaurants are opened in the Korean town at night. Wahh.....it is gorgeous!!!!
When I arrive the ampang, there is a lot of f shops and food restaurants in the town. I also have seen some of the shops are written in Korean words....In the Ampany Kamoung Baru, there are many old and historical buildings which look like Kuala Lumpur or Ipoh. It is really a Kampung Baru>>A lot of Chinese, traditional foods, full of nostalgia feel....There is a lot of hills are around the town... that my village doesn't have!!!
We have order a lot of Yong Tau Foo. The most delicious that I like that is the "Bai Tau Foo" and the " Fried Dumpling". It is so different with other shops...they have put more ingredients inside. The soup of the "Bai Tau Foo" have to drink because it is so tasty. It is cooked by the "shang tang" (上汤).
If you interest of this restaurant, you can refer the more info in google map
Orchard View Yong Tau Foo Ampang, Selangor
621, Jalan Merdeka, Ampang Baru,
68000 Ampang, Selangor
Tel: 03-42917808
*They may be closed in on certain time so make a call before you want to go*
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
A Saman Experience
Hey Guys....there is a way....
I just want to share my experience last thursday....
On that day, I had asked by my sister to make a payment in a police station.
Then, I just waited the counter to call my number...
Actually, this saman is just a normal parking saman. Normally, it just cost RM 30 or RM 50 depend on the place that you parked..
When it is my turn, the lady told me that this saman is cost RM100!!! OMG!!!
I wondering why the saman so expensive and it is just a normal parking saman!!!
At that time, I am so curious and told the lady that can I pay it next time??
Story started>>
Me: Why is it so expensive??
Counter lady: This is because you parked the area "ialah lalu lintas. Ini akan kena kesalahan 1"
so it cost RM 100!!
Me: Sooo....can i pay it next time??
Counter lady: Why??
Me: Because I have no enough money to pay that (innocent).
Counter lady: How many do you have?
Me: RM 50.
Counter lady: Ermm (Smile) ....okla....just give me RM 50 first.
Me: Ok....thank you...thank you
After this, she give me back the receipt and RM 20...so it mean the saman is just cost RM 30 only!!! Can you imagine normally parking saman just cost RM 30 but why they say RM 100??
But I just want to thank that counter lady is so kind for me....thanks ya^^
Just make your own conclusion>>>
I just want to share my experience last thursday....
On that day, I had asked by my sister to make a payment in a police station.
Then, I just waited the counter to call my number...
Actually, this saman is just a normal parking saman. Normally, it just cost RM 30 or RM 50 depend on the place that you parked..
When it is my turn, the lady told me that this saman is cost RM100!!! OMG!!!
I wondering why the saman so expensive and it is just a normal parking saman!!!
At that time, I am so curious and told the lady that can I pay it next time??
Story started>>
Me: Why is it so expensive??
Counter lady: This is because you parked the area "ialah lalu lintas. Ini akan kena kesalahan 1"
so it cost RM 100!!
Me: Sooo....can i pay it next time??
Counter lady: Why??
Me: Because I have no enough money to pay that (innocent).
Counter lady: How many do you have?
Me: RM 50.
Counter lady: Ermm (Smile) ....okla....just give me RM 50 first.
Me: Ok....thank you...thank you
After this, she give me back the receipt and RM 20...so it mean the saman is just cost RM 30 only!!! Can you imagine normally parking saman just cost RM 30 but why they say RM 100??
But I just want to thank that counter lady is so kind for me....thanks ya^^
Just make your own conclusion>>>
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